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  By age, I was semi-annual when pappa had to leave for abroad as a part of his vocation. From there on, maa took over the management of me and my elder sibling. Never falling short in any of her duties, from cooking to shopping; from home making to banking, she manages everything without grumble.    On the flip side, pappa works overseas day and night so that we can inhale in delight. Without fail, where we relish every festival, in another continent, he  smiles in content of providing us with everything possible. Here, we are enjoying family times, there, he still has to work for miles.  I wonder how some souls can be so altruistic and considerate. Pappa has spent his whole early 40's with his workmates so that we can make our whole life better. Our never ending demands have always been fulfilled unfailingly. In return, we always end up wishing for more.      To every dad who is working outside the comfort place, so that his family never goes th...

  I wonder how peacefully I was breathing,  Inside someone who made it so consoling.   Consoled her every gesture, So that we could rest in ceasefire.   Now, when we need everything possessed, Then, we existed in the little room which she has inherited.   Possessing mood swings and emotions so unsteady, Still she made it for 280 days with no less custody.   Who is she?   The one who shapes herself like water, according to the need of circumstances.  The one who faked smiles after smiles to make us advance through miles.   The one who make quarrels let go because we are always the priority over ego. The one who never asks for loyalty because the love she shares is above all these worldly beauty.    Who is she?   The one who once checked the warmth of the milk before feeding,  Now she makes sure anything adverse is not even reaching.   The one who once made life easy inside herself being so fragile,  Now, she makes...

 They say, changes are beautiful. For the first time, I found it painful.   A prolonged pain which they claimed very pure, But still I was kept away from everything pious, The reason, even I am not sure.    Things that are natural are the gifts of the deity, But still I was not allowed to serve the Almighty.   As a child I knew blood is menacing. As a woman I know it can be embarrassing.   Immoral things in public were taught not to be exposed, Now I know even the beautiful changes in me are also meant to be disclosed.    I still remember the day when for the first time my underclothes got stained with blood without any injury. It was not like I did not know about women's menstruation. I was made aware of these changes by my mother. The things I was unaware of were my limitations during the cycles. In many places, women faces a lot of restrictions till now by their family and the society during these seven days. Although I am lucky enough that the...

To those little innocent lies, When stomach was all about butterflies. Butterflies in the breathe, Each look made the heart sink little underneath.   To the cheeks with those natural blush, That made the adrenaline rush. Rushing every time for a single meet, Made us discover some fresh definitions of our heart's beat.   To those shy hesitations of crossing fingers, When walking miles made us linger. Lingering every night to talk more, Anxious feelings used to knock just to adore.   Remember love?   Remember love when it was the most unadulterated thing that existed in this universe?    Remember love when Wikipedia couldn't define it?    Today, love has diverse definitions. Entertainment media bestowed us with a variety of elucidations to love and to be loved and we profoundly act in accordance to the criteria set by them. From roses to rumours love has travelled a long way. Today love has definitions of trust, loyalty, compromise, adjustment and m...

A state of mind when you feel a constant upgradation of knowledge, a philosophy of variable version of thought in a positive direction, a psychology of enhancing the conviction already surviving in the intellect, accomplishment of even the diminutive goals and so much more. All these sentences can be summed up in a single word called 'productivity'.    Normal life is almost a history now. Normal in the  perception when life was outside the comfort shelter of four walls. Normal was when day to day life brought many challenges everyday and our mind wholesomely dedicated to face them. From getting an auto to attending every classes, waking up in the morning to tolerating the boring conferences, everything was a challenge. Even if we missed some, life proposed so much new every following day that the thought of not executing few never crossed the mind. The pandemic that hit the world in late 2019 has made a huge impact on everything that was once normal. From snuggling to soc...

It is somewhere dark where I am locked. People outside are still giggling because I was mocked. I was mocked of crying, With abortive measures of trying. Trying to escape from the world so flashy, Because everything around is too messy. It is not somewhere I was supposed to be dropped, Where my body is being delightfully craved but the soul in it is cropped. I am draped with all red and pretended gold, Which the decent world calls bold. The indecent world forced my toe with ornamental anklet bells which I could barely hold, And then I realised that I could be bargained and sold. It was 2012 and I was about to be twelve by the next month, the time when the adrenaline rush reaches at its peak, the time when completing the history syllabus was more important than life goals.  It was almost quarter past eleven in the morning when I was hurrying excitedly for the tuitions. Excited because for the first time I was authorised to go alone since mom was busy with some household work. She ha...

 "I am feeling so depressed from the morning", "The lectures are so depressing." Relatable phrases right? Afterall, the word 'depression' is such a trendy word to overlap with. Without understanding the depth of the word, it is put into the bin of chic social media hashtags. The word 'depression' is too big to be trivialized loosely. It is as serious as diabetes and cancer. The only contrast is, the former dismantles you physically and the later demolishes you mentally. Till now we encountered the word in our timelines, now it is high time to actually study whether our mood swings are enough to define the word 'depression' or not.    Depression can be defined as a disorder or a manifestation of disorders. Sustained stress or actions in the past can also be a cause, but some people even get it without any root. Sometimes there are actually no reasons to be depressed of, there can be plentiful impulses to be happy, but still one can suffer from...